Back up blogging here. This is from my trip to Houston a couple of weeks ago.

Mariah and I braved a trip together with all the kids in the van. It was.........loud, to say the least. Good memories though. Before we parted ways to spend time with our families my Mom had a photo shoot with us and and all the kids in her photography studio. It was great fun , more of thos pics to come.
These are a few of my fam as we were leaving. Claire is with Meg's cutie boyfriend , Jake, who she completely adores and wants to marry if Meg doesn't. I"m pretty sure Gwen wants to marry him to , but only if doesn't work out with Jack, her daddy or her brother. What sweet innocence!

Blue............cuz that's what I am today.

I have tried very hard to not think about it, to do other things, to be extra happy but I'm done and now I'm just gonna have to feel it. Feel the ache of a friend getting further and further away from Texas as I write.
Knowing that it's for real that I cannot call Mariah and ask her to meet me at the park is really setting in. She won't remind me of stuff I forgot to write on the calendar that we're doing together because we won't be doing stuff together anymore! I can't decide spur of th moment that I want to have a sleep over , or that we should switch kids for a day or that I don't want to cook and we need to meet somewhere cuz I'm really hungry. Nope, none of that will be happening because she doesn't live here anymore! I'm pretty sure I won't have another friend that is always on time for everything, even though she knows I'll be late. That is always up for anything I think up at whatever time of day and lets me ruin her plans just so we can hang out. She is the only friend I have that is even more relaxed than me about cleaniness and sick prevention techniques.
Plus, who will tell me like it is, when no one else around does? Who will love me soo much, yet be able to completely put me in my place at any given second?
How mad are my kids gonna be now that using the bathroom outside is so over for them, because Mariah's kids aren't around to be doing it anymore. Who will get completely excited about just coming to my house and eating a snack? Who will understand why I have to change plans when it rains cuz I don't like to drive in it? Who will make me do stupid girl stuff I used to make fun of, like sleep overs and taking pictures together? Not Mariah.................cuz she won't be here!
Okay well it's true no one else is going to be Mariah and I know I have lots of really good friends , God has blessed me with. Actually I'm truly glad that He gave me a friend that is so irreplaceable. That's is the best kind right?
I think I'm done with my pity party and now I feel better. However, watching Beaches and eating ice cream is probablly still in my near future.