My own rendition of Psalm 142


I cry aloud to the Lord
( I need to be heard over the wails of my three yr old)
I lift up my voice to the Lord for mercy and pour out my complaint before him
( I'm really not sure I can make it as a mother this evening)
In the path where I walk men, ( little people) have hidden a snare for me.
( on the way to clean the kitchen I find my 11mo old in the bathroom with a bag of gold fish split open and orange mess surrounding him)
I look to my right and see; no one is concerned for me
( I feel like a maid in my own house)
I have no refuge
( not even the bathroom is a safe place anymore)
No ones cares for my life
( this of course is an exaggeration but I'm going to run with it. )
( I feel alone even though precious blond and red heads surround me tugging at my legs)
Listen to my cry for I am in desperate need. Rescue me from those who pursue me for they are too strong for me.
( on a serious note, Satan loves to crouch at my door when I'm tired and frustrated. Only God can take him out)
Set me free from my prison
( my feelings of desperation , imprison me)
that I may praise your name.
Then the righteous will gather about me because of your goodness to me
( I can still keep my head up around my godly friends because of your good grace God)


Well that was fun to write this morning. Really I'm much better than I was last night. In Kirby's defense, he is an awesome husband and I NEVER have felt like no one cares about me.
Right now we are working extra hard to get an investment property ready to rent so my job has been to do be okay and supportive while Kirby spends extra time on this project. I fully support this project and am soo proud of him for doing this. I just felt a tad stressed the other night and laughed as I read this psalm yesterday morning and decided to share what my thoughts were as I read it.

( this is a picture of the sunrise from
my back yard a couple of weeks ago.....love it!)

Architecture at it's best.

I found myself in utter awe of the buildings in NYC. I couldn't understand why. They have no life. Man built them. Why did they make my heart stop somtimes? Maybe it's knowing how much work was put into building them, this is especially true of the cathedrals. I. When I look at one of these buildings I am overwhelmed by their size and sometimes their beauty. When I was little I would have wanted to live in them, now I can be content with gazing at them, or walking in for a moment. I believe God put the desire in our heart for Grandness. To want to walk in it, gaze at it, live in it. Buildings like these are just a tiny peek of real Grandness, I know this is true.

Central Park

Way more georgeous and breathtaking than I imagined. I had no idea it is like 100 blocks! We only did a third of it but throughly enjoyed our park bench. It was so shady and serene here. We had so many good conversations over the course of the trip, but I do believe this was the best. People came and went for hours on the benches next to us but we were too engrossed in the scenery and our dialoge to notice many of them. I really feel like we had church at this place. We discussed many ways to reach the lost, show Christs' love and were honest with our own shortcomings. Velvet and I are always changing places on who is more conservative and who is more liberal. As we grow older and life happens we change and grow and it is soo cool to be totally accepted right where I am , even if it's on the total other end of the spectrum from Velvet. No matter our views, our hearts are the same and that loyatly and friendship enables us to have rip roaring discussions without rip roaring voices or feeling the least bit defensive. It's truly a gift.
At one point while we were sitting here I saw a bird fly overhead and all at once I felt totally free inside. It's like God had to get me all the way to Central Park to show me how Free indeed He enables me to be.

The City of Dreams


well this turned out true for me, as I was actually ON the Good Morning America show. Yep, Velvet and I and our big cheesy smiles could be seen for a least 3 to 4 minutes while Sam Champion did the weather and then ask us where we were from! We were ecstatic the moment he planted himself right beside us. I had been waiting for this moment for so long that I all I could do was smile as big as possible. Well my Mom did say she could tell I was chewing gum. ( How do Moms know this stuff)
It was one of my highlights. Mostly because I have dreamed of being on a news show since I was little but never thought I could keep a straight face. Well I certainly showed my true colors while on GMA , smiling big and smacking my gum!
I'm still waiting for the call though, where I have to turn down Good Morning America for a news anchor position.
So the first three pics are the news people; Elizabeth, George and Sam and then I just added one of my favorite billboards of Gwen Stafani , cuz I loved seeing her face so big every time I turned onto Times Square.

New York : Part 2
The Hotel Metro is where we stayed. It was soo New York. Right in the middle of everything, a coffee shop across the street and best of all a roof top hang out with the most amazing view of the Empire St. Building.
We really took in the moment while eating lunch in Bryant Park. A huge fashion show was in the making , so we were lucky to get to hang out before it started. I really loved this little book center for kiddos too. I loved this lunch hang out because it was strictly tables to eat lunch at. People from all walks of life were hanging out on their lunch break. This is where I had my much awaited New York hot dog and some Soy Crisp which I was so grateful to find in a little deli.
My favorite show was was The Color Purple. Fantasia ( American Idol winner) was the lead role of Celie. It was extraordinary! Very Fresh and full of talent. Fantasia was so believable as Celie. I had never read the book or seen the movie and I could go on for pages about the things I learned from this show and how it opened my mind. In a snap, I think it spurred Velvet and I to really appreciate the family we have , especially our sisters.
The pic of me and Vel is right after eating Pizza at John's which was a cathedral turned pizza restaurant.
more tomorrow.

was it real?
oh yes, it was very real, in a surreal kinda way. Velvet and I took a trip we will never forget last week to NYC.
I have been relunctant to blog, mostly because of not knowing how in the world to put in words how amazing it was or how to choose what pics to post. So I"m gonna do a little every day ,therefore stretching my memory of this trip for as long as I can. I have to say first, after 4 years of college together and then 3 babies each living in different states , Velvet and I could have been put in a cave and come out with funny pictures and lots of laughs.
These are three of my favs. Velvet our first night in Times Sqare ( a little excited?) , Me our first morning with my Starbucks in Grand Central, (which I totally dug and wanted to hop on a train and just go somewhere for fun), and my most favorite photo from Central Park.
In a word, this trip gave me Freedom for my mind. I missed my husband and children like crazy, but Kirby did such a good job of sounding positive and being loving that I couldn't be worried. The great thing is I think I have been able to bring back the Sunny of New York to my home here. Caring for my kids is a privledge again, my mind is open to new ways to show Jesus to people ( thank you Velvet) and I gained courage ( kuddos to Vel for navigating the city, you totally inspire this southern girl)
more to come!